Spiritual Calcination Meditations
Meditations from Spiritual Alchemy, Metamorphosis of Body, Mind and Sou, by Dennis William Hauck
1. The Mantra of Self
The principle of this meditation is to keeping the computer mind that generates thought silent by keeping it busy processing a looped or endless program. In Eastern alchemy, this name or phrase is called a “mantra.” Whether spoken or not, words and sounds have vibrations which can be conducive to meditation. Saying your name over and over is one of these looping mantras that eventually silences the ego and its habitual creation of thoughts. Just say your name over and over and try to find understand what it means. This technique was a favorite of the spiritual alchemist Alfred Lord Tennyson, who discovered it while still a child.
“A kind of trance I have frequently had,” he wrote, “quite up from my boyhood, when I have been all alone. This has generally come upon me through repeating my own name to myself silently, until all at once, as it were out of the intensity of the consciousness of individuality, the individuality itself seemed to dissolve and fade away into boundless being; and this is not a confused state but the clearest of the clearest, the surest of the surest, the weirdest of the weirdest, utterly beyond words, where death was an almost laughable impossibility,
the loss of personality seeming no extinction, but the only true life.”
Or simply relax and concentrate on the breath, while periodically asking yourself the question “Who is aware?” In the silence of the response, you can feel your own consciousness at the ground of your being. Alternatively, sit in a silent, dark room and repeat your name to yourself over and over, trying to determine what it really means. Not merely repeating but to be alchemical must be a living thought. The ego cannot survive that kind of intense scrutiny. By observing yourself observing yourself, you enter an infinite progression or mental loop — until finally there is no difference between the observer and the observed, between you and your consciousness. The steps in this procedure are as follows:
1) Close your eyes and breathe deeply and regularly. Focus on saying your own name as if calling someone. Repeat your name in your mind with each exhalation. When your mind wanders, gently return it to your name as it repeats automatically as you breathe out. Repeat it like a mantra to make your ego show itself or surface. You are calling the ego forth because you know its name.
2) Let feelings rise but not thoughts. Replace any extraneous thoughts with mantra of your name.
3) In this state of objectivity, your hidden faults come to light. You many be disappointed when see our yourself as a social animal, lustful, devious, materialistic, striving, and trapped in the prison of your own thoughts.
4) Now stop saying your name, and rest in the silence of your mind. Hidden in the darkness and silence is something wonderful. From this emptiness will come your true essence, an infinitely wise presence that is your unborn Self.
2: Crushing The Ego
Let's begin our work in the Inner Laboratory by trying to crush ego. This is not an easy task. Most people have built their entire lives around the desires and demands of their ego, although, for each of us, there have been moments of utter humiliation in which ego has been at least momentarily pulverized. Think back to one of these experiences in your own life and use that energy to try to free yourself from the control of ego. Think back. Did someone ever really embarrass you? Did you ever make a wrong decision that caused pain or havoc for others? Were you ever caught performing some act you were not supposed to be doing? Did anyone ever blame you for something bad happening? How did you feel at these moments when your ego was deflated or defeated? Be careful not to rationalize or try to blame others! Remember ego is constantly rewriting history to portray itself in a better light. Bring back those embarrassing events and hurt feelings as vividly and completely as you can. They have great power to put your ego in its place and expose the falsity of the world it supports.
Another way to crush ego is soliciting honest input from friends and loved ones. Unfortunately, most of us have built up a support system of people around us who only respond to our ego and have little feeling for our true essence. However, if you have friends you trust to be truthful, ask them for an honest appraisal of your personality or even invite them to play a “truth or dare” game in which you illicit and exchange honest opinions of each other. This of course can be a dangerous game to play, since ego will do anything in its power to protect itself, including showing anger and using insights vengefully to get back at someone for a perceived attack. Whatever method you use, after awhile you should be able to just remember what it felt like to have a crushed ego and perpetuate that attitude for use in the next phases of your work. Conquering the false identity is more important than you think. Personal ego and the superego of society (nationalism and cultural bias) are the greatest threats to personal freedom and intentional transformation. You have to find a way to get beyond them to really change yourself, to reveal your spiritual essence and live your life in truth. The following steps are part of this simple meditation:
1) Slowly put on your meditative “lab coat” (relax each part of the body in turn.) In the meditative state, you are temporarily divorced from ego and can clearly see the follies and injustices of ego-centered existence.
2) In this relaxed state, try to be as brutally honest about your behavior towards others, your illusions, your projected self, and other false components of your social personality. Think back on your most denigrating experiences, the times when you “got burned.” Realize how much you never wanted to let those things happen again. Your ego has gone to extreme lengths to get even or to never allow the opportunity for such things to take place again. Understand how your ego has turned you into a reactive robot through its power of controlling your thoughts, judgments, and emotions.
3) After continuing this ruthless and intense introspection for some time, you will discover that your ego is entirely a reactive device designed to perpetuate the illusion of itself. The alchemists saw the ego’s hardened thoughts as “Salt” that forms the structure of our personalities. Sometime they spoke of them as “metals” within us and believed they made up our “temperament.” It is the job of the Black Phase of alchemy (Calcination and Dissolution) to dissolve this Salt or melt the inner metals to enable us to begin the work of personal transmutation. Or as alchemist Gerhardt Dorn instructed: “Transmute yourselves from dead stones into living philosophical stones.”
3: Bodily Calcination
As with all the operations in alchemy, Calcination takes place not only on the psychological and spiritual levels but also within the body itself. Furthermore, you can get a good idea of the intensity required in working with Fire on the mental and spiritual levels by experiencing it on the physical level. Bodily Calcination uses aerobic exercises to fan the fires of metabolism. Jogging, biking, swimming, or just rapid breathing in a sitting position all fan the Fire of metabolism.
Aside from releasing knots of trapped energy along the spine, the Bellows Breath has health benefits such as oxygenating the blood and cleansing toxins, and regular practice quickly expands lung capacity. The Bellows Breath combines the elements of Fire and Air, which is a powerful spiritizing combination of alchemical forces. To perform the consciousness-altering Breath of Fire or “Bellows Breath,” follow the following steps:
1) Sit on the floor cross-legged or resting on the knees with the legs bent underneath. Focus on the energy field just below the navel at the birth point of the life force.
2) The breath is very rapid, continuous and powerful with no pause between inhaling and exhaling. The rate is about two exhalations per second.
3) As you exhale, push out the air like a bellows by pulling the navel point in toward the spine. When you inhale, use a forward thrust of the navel to bring air into the lungs.
4) Try to keep a smooth, balanced breath with no emphasis on the either the taking or expulsion of air.
5) After a few minutes of “fanning the fire,” you will start to feel a warmth rise from the stomach and accumulate in the head. Sometimes practitioners report being able to see a shining Quintessence of activated life force within, if they close their eyes after about five minutes of performing this strenuous exercise.
6) After about ten minutes, most people experience a “blunting of the ego” which is the final goal for many yogis. If you try to stop abruptly at this point, there is sometimes a bouncing or spilling sensation as the energy returns to the psychospiritual cauldron at the base of the spine.
7) If you continue, a fluid warmth rises from that area to the head and then spreads slowly to other locations in the body. Use this opportunity to experience the rising energy without making any assumptions or judgments about what is going on. Simply feel the pure energy and how it seems to follow thought to different areas of the body.
The result of such calcining exercises on the body is a purification of bodily systems, elimination of toxins, and a concentration of life force. Mindful physical exercise is a powerful tool in personal transformation if performed with the right attitude. The body is not only the temple of the soul, it can become a sacred talisman to remind us that alchemy is real and works on levels. If you are able, perform some type of intense aerobic exercise and focus the Fire generated by the physical effort on your own personality, ego illusions, and spiritual purity. The clarity generated by the light of this internal Fire will reveal many true things about your current state of transformation.
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